On the bus this afternoon, I heard some girls talking. They were saying some things about how this girl said some mean things to them randomly… Then they started talking about the girl wanted to commit suicide because her boyfriend died or something, but she didn’t really know him, and he was supposedly deaf, so they said that he might be ‘imaginary’ or something… But that’s not important. At one point, they said this:

“Kill herself?”

“Yeah… Isn’t it funny?” Then she laughed.

And I was just thinking… What’s so funny about death?

When somebody dies, everything changes. I don’t mean their friends and family, although that does happen. I mean that when somebody dies, everybody’s lives they were meant to meet in the future change…  Even talking to someone can change their lives… In youth group, they told a story about how this boy was going home to kill himself, then a classmate saw him drop his books and helped him pick them up. Because of that, he decided not to commit suicide… The story’s a lot longer, that’s the condensed version.

My point is, when somebody dies, everything changes. I know, I already said that. I do feel strongly about this, though...

Oh, and in English class, our teacher was telling this really cool story,  and at one point, a woman jumped in front of the train that my teacher was in, killing herself.

Just about the whole class laughed. Or at least smiled. I was sitting there, thinking “What the heck is wrong with these people?”

Do you get my point?

Death and suicide isn’t a laughing matter.

Yes, I do think about stuff like this a lot…

Stereotypes

EDIT: Yes, I went back to my old layout! Hmm... There have been some changes made to it. Three columns. I liked the two better.

I'm grounded AGAIN, so I might not be on much.

This blog post got me thinking...

Why do people feel the need to stereotype? I'm not saying that I don't judge, because I do, but I try not to. I mean, when I look at someone, I automatically judge them, even if just a little bit. It's a habit, and I think that just about everybody does it. But trying to stereotype somebody, on the other hand, I don't like. Yes, I have received my fair share of "Are you goth?" comments. Gosh, is it illegal for someone to wear black and not be goth? I'm kind of surprised that no one has asked me if I'm emo, though, because I thought that my style would be more emo than goth. Guess not.
On the first day of school I wore a black shirt that said 'I ♥ rock', a plaid miniskirt, and leggings, and someone kept trying to stereotype me. "Well, now that you've gone punk..." "I'm not punk." "Oh, sorry, rocker." Gosh.
And then there are the stupid confusions on stereotypes. Y'know, that all emos cut and that all cutters are emo. What the heck? I know a preppy girl that cuts (I used to know her, at least... My mum's still friends with her mother, but I haven't seen her in years). On Yahoo! Answers, I read an answer on a question that was "What is emo?" that said "Depressed kids are goth, not Emo."
What?
So those who are depressed are now goth? Isn't emo short for emotional? T_T
Here's the question, read the answers. They're fairly amusing.
And I do realize that I'm ranting about stereotypes, and then I just called that girl up there 'preppy.' Sorry, but sometimes that's just the best way to explain somebody's personality, right? But if it's okay to do that, then it would have to be okay to say something like "She seems pretty emo," aaand then we're just going around in an endless circle. So I'll try to stop calling people pretty, alright?
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In other news, I now have a pair of sound canceling headphones! My mother and I stopped at K-Mart today, which was having a closing sale... The headphones are originally $50, but my mother bought them for me for around $35! I have to pay her back, though (sigh).
School starts back up tomorrow! And I still have some homework to do (u_u) How sad...

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I am finally ungrounded!
So, what's new? A lot.

I'm currently reading two books; The Lovely Bones and The Outsiders.
The Outsiders is for English class, The Lovely Bones is for fun. I really like them both!
But some girls at our lunch table ruined the ending of The Outsiders for me.
Ugh. I told them to shut up because I haven't finished it, but they just said "We're not talking to you!"
And kept right on talking. Uh, I can still hear you! Really, I wonder about
the intelligence of people these days.

I love English class! My teacher is so nice! She knew my name by the first day, too ^^
I know that because I said something quietly in class, and she said "What, Courtney?"
So she didn't look at a seating chart first or anything.
I'm writing a poem for a vocabulary assignment in that class.
I don't think it's that good, but she said that she was impressed, and asked me if she could read it
to the rest of the class on Monday! I said no, 'cuz that's embarresing, but she was kind of begging
me (laugh).
I said that she could read it if she said that it was written by a student from a different class hour.
It's weird, though, because I'm really not a writer... At all. Haha.
I might post it here later... When I finish it.

Have y'all seen the new iPod Nanos?! They ROCK! :D Seriously, they're awesome.
With the old ones, you had to pay $50 more if you wanted a colour one, with 8 gigs.
But now when you pay $150, rather than getting a silver iPod with only 4gb,
you get a coloured one (choice from nine bright colours) with 8gb and video! Plus, it has that
fawesome cover flow thing, and if you turn it to the side, the screen moves, too! ^^
Seriously, people, watch the video.
Plus, they're not fat anymore! I never did like the fat ones.
...I feel like I'm doing a sales pitch or something. Sorry, I'm just really excited about this.
I want a blue one!

PS. Sorry about the tiny font!

Sorry, I'm grounded for two weeks (for no reason), so I won't be blogging much... I'm not supposed to be on now, haha.

School starts tomorrow!

NOOOOOO!

T_T

Courtney